Friday, July 9, 2010


We love  Gymboree!
We've been at Gymboree (Gymbo) for 2 weeks now and we love it. Emmersyn & I go every Tuesday & Thursday at 1:00pm. It's a bit pricey - But worth it, to me. It gets both of us out of the house twice a week doing something other then grocery shopping or paying bills - And it gets us socializing. Even if it's just for 45 minutes each time.
I've always been a bit of an 'out-cast'. I've never been in the popular crowd. And I have a hard time fitting in. It's my own fault. My own thoughts. It's because I care too much about what others think of me. . . This started even before I became a mom. It's a long story as to why I am this way - But as usual with things like this, it is because I've had some bad things happen to me. So yeah. . . It can be kinda awkward/weird for me some days if I think too much about it - But I try to interact with the other [super cute] babies & talk with the other moms. But once again - I just feel I don't belong.
We don't have a lot of money. I don't wear expensive clothes. I don't drive a super nice car. We're a military family - Working with a tight budget most the time. And you know what? That's a-okay for me. I wouldn't have it any other way. I love my life just how it is. I don't need a fancy car. . . My little Escape does the job just perfectly.
It's really hard for me to make friends. . . And once I make them - It's hard for me to keep them. I sadly just keep waiting for the epic fall out that I feel is bound to happen, just because it's happened before. I really want to make friends through this experience. I have some wonderful childhood friends and some wonderful high school friends. But most them are childless & not married - Living up the single college life. And frankly, that is far from my scene. I have a great friend out here, though. Another Navy wife. She's got a super adorable little girl who is 10.5 months older then my little piggy. We get together as much as we can and I greatly enjoy my time with her. I love her daughter to pieces. . . We've been friends for the past year so we've gotten to know each other pretty well. She's met my mom & I've met her parents. We've seen each other probably at our worst (or near it). [I helped her w/ her daughter after she had a surgery & she came to visit me just 2 days after I had Emmersyn, so I was pretty 'beat up']. But with the age difference of the girls right now - Getting together is hard.
Her little one is interested in Em. . . But Em is still too little to play with. And her lil one is just over a year, so she doesn't quiet understand "Shh" and "Gentle" - Though we're working with her on the gentle part. She wants to play with Em so bad. I feel bad. Don't get me wrong - I absolutely love hanging out with them. She knows a lot about me. . . A lot about what's happened these last few years with my marriage, ect. . . She was there through my whole pregnancy and then some. She was there for me during the whole deployment - Her and her husband helped me a ton. But it'd be nice to also have someone to hang out with who's little one is closer to Em's age.
So I am hoping that I can stop caring so much. . . And start letting loose a bit more. Not that Gymboree is exactly the place to 'let loose' - But you get my drift.
I know there's a lot of people out there who are like this, as well. I've heard about it before. 
If you're one - How did you over come it? How do you make friends? I know the obvious to the 2nd question - But for me, it's harder then that. 
It's late - I have an early morning. I think I'll go join my little love.
[Another plus to Gymboree - It wears her out! She takes a good 2 hour nap when we get home every time]


  1. I felt that way after my first born because i was so much younger then the other mom's. I really did not have anyone to talk to and like you I felt like an outcast at gymboree and play groups. The 2nd time I just tried to be more outgoing and friendly. sometimes though I had my days where I felt alone. Just take advantage of time with her at Gymboree. That's what I did with my son.

  2. Yeah. I'm 21 - So while I am on the younger side, I feel like there's a lot of people my age having kids. If anything, Em and I will continue going to Gymboree for the fact that it's fun and something good for us to do.


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